ughh

This whole experience of breast feeding has been wonderful and at the same time super stressful. I do not know exactly how much he is eating, is he getting enough to eat, am I eating healthy enough for him? All these things crossing my mind constantly worrying about Liam's nutrition. And on the other hand I know breast milk is best for the babies and I have really enjoyed the time spent with him during feedings. 

Now,  I am trying to pump since I have to return to work in a little over three weeks.  Enters a new stress stage left. I gave it my first attempt and failed miserably. I could only get a few drops out.  Enter melt down, stage right. I started worrying more that this was a gauge to how much milk supply I have, and wondering what if I can;t pump what I will do when I have to work. 

So many worries, but it is so good for the little guy. So, tonight I will give it another shot. I will make this work.